MS 150/ Pizza & Tivo/ Justin Bobby

Number one:

So I'm getting nervous about MS 150- mostly when I'm running on the treadmill for 20 minutes and I feel like I'm going to pass out. I think to myself, "Self, here you are running stationary for less than an hour, how in the hell do you think you will ever make it to AUSTIN- on a bike?!?!?" And I'm freakin myself out. BUT I have somehow made a somewhat new friend. We knew eachother at UH but never really hung out. I found out he did the MS 150. We don't even know eachother that well but I wrote him asking how he did it and if he had any advice to give- not thinking I would get the sort of response that I did. He was completely honest and inspiring. The things he said helped me to think about how awesome it will feel to finish and I'm not as scared anymore. Not to mention I was worried he might be a jerk (cause sometimes fraternity boys are) but he wasn't and bonus! He's cute. So all in all, thankful to find some inspiration in an unlikely source.

Number Two:

I got sooooo much work done today. There is so much still left unorganized from college recruiting bc some people don't give me all of the information and paperwork at the same time. It's a mess but I'm glad that I'm getting to do it my way- you know cause that's the best way...jk- kind of....lol

Number Three:

I might go to Marquee tonight. It will be nice to hang out with some girls I haven't seen in a while. Haven't been in that place in forever!!!!

Number Four:

Amanda came over yesterday to pick up her pan and get dressed before work. It was nice to just sit and watch E! News with her.

Number Five:

I don't think I should be thankful for this BUT did you know you can order Domino's pizza from your Tivo?!??!?! I saw the button last night and I pushed it and typed in my order with the remote! Didn't even have to interrupt The Hills! This is not on the path to not being a chunky monkey in my bikini but it's so cool! And so easy! And sooo good! And so fat so that's probably the last time I do that but lastnight I was thankful for it....

BONUS!!!!!!
There was a lot of Justin Bobby on The Hills last night ;) He's so cute!

She Runs Away

Eric Clapton to Pattie Boyd (his Layla):
(from Boyd, Pattie and Junor, Penny (2007). Wonderful Tonight)

“The thing about pessimism is that in most cases it’s nothing more than a front behind which a body can hide its most sweet yet painful hopes. Please forgive me.”



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“Just get better,” my drink softens the blow
Why it ends like this, I’ll never know
Your heart is breaking, it’s all around
My heart shatters, a familiar sound
The look in your eye, your voice and the tone
I’ll always prefer to cry all alone
All of the screaming, you can do better
If she has to go, you have to just let her
All of the patience, but there’s none at all
Remember hang up, when she tries to call
Again and again, she’s on the line
But you cannot help her, it’s what she has to find
You cannot fix this, I push it away
I’ll always love you, from December till May

-Jay 9/26/08

A Real Hello to You

So like I was saying, I started my own blog. (I had just written a paragraph and it disappeared...very frustrating.) What I was saying was that this blog is for me and if you’re interested in reading it that’s awesome. I just have crazy thoughts and I want to get them down. I have always written, ever since I could! And before that my grandmother would write the words for me. Even though I didn’t realize it as a child writing was my outlet and an empty page was always ready and waiting to listen to all I had to say (when grownups just thought I talked too much).

Now I am a ‘grown up’ (per say) and a new obstacle has come. Sometimes I have a point and sometimes I forget where I was going with this. But that usually happens when I talk. It’s this new weird thing with me. I can’t organize my thoughts when I speak anymore. I ramble like a fool and I often lose my point. So I have to write in order to arrange my thoughts and really consider the way I want things expressed. This blog is going to help this madness.

Now with that said, just because I write a lot does not mean:

a. I’m always interesting. I mean I’m always interesting to myself but who isn’t interested in their self?

b. My grammar can get nuts so just bear with me.

c. I spell things how I want to. I try to look things up and get as perfect as possible but sometimes they slip through. Sue me.

d. Sentence fragments I don’t consider revising. If I like it, it stays.

I like to talk/ write about everything but things that appeal to me most are music, any funny event that has happened or is happening in my life, sometimes very sad things, I like fashion but uh yeah I could use a tip or two. I like poetry and when I write poems most of the time they rhyme. I like it that way. I am very into making lists of things and I have a group of close friends that I write the Top 5 with.

I like to talk about current events and my view on things. I don’t get too serious about things I don’t know too much about, I keep it simple. I’m obsessed with pop culture even though I’m embarrassed to say so; I like to think I’m way cooler than that but apparently I’m not! I have a guilty pleasure with loving celebrities and wanting to win the lottery- I’m sure at some point I’ll let anyone (who’s reading) in on my plans for when I win. I’m a dreamer and I have a crazy motivation to make things happen. Fun things mostly.

Older things that I have written will end up on here too. I feel like the blog is a sort of ‘moving forward’ concept for me in many ways but all things considered, if I liked it a lot and it’s old I will post it anyway.

I’m always trying to be healthy or at least I like to talk about trying to be healthy. And I’m pretty sure I will keep an updated blog here about me (very out of shape) deciding to do the MS 150- which is a bike ride from Houston to Austin, TX over a weekend. (Did I mention I’m in love with fried chicken?) This will be interesting if not just for me to see myself from beginning to end of that journey. I haven’t completely committed myself to doing it yet but if I do- Day 1 until I get to Austin on a bicycle will be documented here. Among other things!

I waited so long to start a real blog (I have one on myspace although it isn’t consistent) because in natural Scorpio fashion I am a very private person. I don’t like the world knowing my biznass but in some odd way, I still want to do this.

God bless you friends of mine who I’m sure will end up in this blog. I write about what happens around me and friends, you are ridiculous so, this is for you too.

Million Dollar Baby?

Yesterday I was at the gym (yes it's true I'm not lying) and I saw this girl there working out with her trainer. She looked amazing and all Million Dollar Baby! She was boxing with a few kicks to the head thrown in here and there. She looked like she could kick my ass....or anybodies for sure. I was like man I wanna be all Rocky like, hopping around boxing the air and beating the crap out of my trainer too! (Although Derith is a lot smaller than this man working out with Muhammad Ali's daughter's look a like)

And then I was thinking, do I really want to fight or do I just want to look awesome in that outfit she has on with the boxing gloves?

I don't know. I think I could be into beating some bitches down.

This little cartoon from nataliedee.com is me......

But the Sun is Still Shining........

Top Five!!!!!!

Ok people, get ready for this one....

1. Thankful I have electricity at my apt. It's rare around these parts to have power and I almost feel guilty for having it while others around me are miserable.

2. I am thankful that no electricity is only a temporary thing. I stayed at my mom's house last night and they have a generator which means limited power. It's sooooo dark even in the city. So....

A. Thankful that on normal days I don't have to get ready in the dark with a flashlight.

B. Thankful that I had a flashlight.

C. Thankful that my parents were able to buy a generator so it not completely like they're camping.

3. Thankful that I was able to get them groceries while I was still in College Station.

A. Thankful I didn't have to wait in line for 3 hours at the grocery store like they do in Texas City right now.

4. Thankful that the damage to our house is not as bad as some others.

A. Thankful we have a house to return to.

5. So thankful we decided not to 'ride it out'

A. Thankful my family was able to get hotel rooms

B. Thankful that Chelsea treats the 'guest room' like it is really 'my room'

6. Thankful my boss helped me at the grocery store yesterday. Piling up the packs of water in the basket and then helping me load it in the car.

7. Thankful for all of my parents friends that have come together to help out. The love is amazing.

8. Thankful for all of the electricity people who have come from other cities to help out our area. They are working crazy long shifts to get things back to normal.

9. Thankful Jacob has work and is not freaking out anymore.

10. Thankful for the Hancock family who had us over for dinner on their back patio lastnight and offering their showers and hot water for my parents.

11. Thankful that the weather has been sooo nice! Especially since there has been no electricity.

12. Thankful for a 'bright side' it could have been worse. Our house could have been filled with water or the house could have not existed all together. Regardless of the trying time (and believe me it is a trying time!) we are getting back to normal slowly but surely.

People are frustrated, upset, and worried but these things we must remember: It could have been worse.

We live everyday with luxeries like running water, being able to charge a cell phone, have regulated temperature and we take it all for granted- and that's natural. We assume that since those things have always been there that they always will be there and that's not neccessarily the case. Even though we feel like we are in a bad situation- think of the the people in Ethiopia- we are living like kings in these conditions compare to their daily lives! And our situation is only temporary.

I never thought that just running to the grocery store for a loaf of bread would ever be a problem. But now my sister and mom will wait in line at HEB for 3 hours to get a loaf of bread that may not even be on the shelf once they finally get into the store.

BUT we are alive and we are well! We have the health and energy to work together and get the mess cleaned up. God will take care of us and everything will eventually be better than it is today.
Take this time to help someone who needs it and to spend time with people that you care about. Appreciate them and love them. Realize that even if you feel you don't have much you really have the world. Don't complain about what you don't have, be thankful for what you do have.

And go outside- it's the perfect day to be alive.